Retail Therapy

These last few days have had a lot of ups and downs for me, and I am sure that will continue for many days to come. I am really working on not worrying and letting these problems in Guatemala go, but there are times when that is easier said than done. I have had little pieces of encouragement this weekend and times of truly being ok with everything.

Every time problems or delays come up in the process, I get the urge to do something or buy something for Shiloh. I think it is a subconscious way of me rebelling against the problems, like saying, "Oh yeah, well I still believe she will be home and just to show you, I am going to go out and buy something for her, because I know she will get to use it soon, so take that!" Kind of like my own stubborn show of faith. Well, today was no exception.

We went to Babies R US and finally bought a baby monitor. It has been one of the only big things that we have been missing. We also bought the warranty for when it falls apart (as all monitors seem to, according to the reviews).


I also got some bottles. This was my big "stick it to you" purchase. I had taken all of my bottles and sippy cups back a few months ago because I had done some reading about bisephenol in some plastics, but once I had returned them I was hesitant to buy new ones because I started thinking, what if it takes too long for her to come home and by the time we get her, she doesn't even use bottles anymore. Well, I am having faith that she will be home and will still need bottles. The great thing about these bottles, besides the fact that they don't have the bisephenol in them is that when it is time to move into sippy cups, you can replace the bottle nipples with silicone sippy nipples and they become the sippy cup without having to buy a totally different cup.

Now I just need my little girl home to use all of this stuff! The latest that I have heard about PGN (though my agency warns me that it could change every day) is that the cases that are currently in PGN are still being processed and approved, but if the case has not yet been submitted into PGN or if it gets a previo and is kicked out, then it can't be submitted again until it is registered with the Central Authority. We have been in PGN for 3 1/2 weeks now. I know that it is very normal for cases to be kicked out, but I am desperately praying that we will be one of the rare cases that goes through quickly without getting kicked out. Please continue to pray for us and Shiloh, and all the other families who are having to deal with all of this too! I know that God is faithful, and truly believe that if he has moved to grandfather the in process cases into the new laws, that he will also work this out too!